Am I a Christian or Not?

Lord! Someone said I might become a Saint
Others predicted a preacher
While I was laughing inside,
realizing myself in guilt
You have shown the greatest sinner in me
Your love cleansed me
to be a servant of Yours!
Now I start asking mysel
“Am I a Christian or Not?”

I walked into many a church
Wonderful buildings, many denominations
You never advised people
to divide in groups
But wondered to see the
“loving disciples of Yours”
scattered in groups
Sad to know Your disciples
got the name “Christian” and
This name “Christian” sadly added
with “Religion List” along with many
“Discipleship in you” feels
very uncomfortable to be there
It knows pretty well that
You are the Way, the Life and the Truth
Now I am being asked
“Am I a Christian or Not ?”

Lord! You told me
You are the Father-God of
everyone in the world
Christians unfairly claim
that You are belongs to them alone
Other Children of Yours in trillions
look at You as the God for Christians
Amidst Christians the Rich doesn’t get
related with the Poor
The Poor doesn’t want to relate with
the poorest of the poor
Lord! You loved all but
there is no expanded love herein the world
Now I am being asked “Am I a Christian or Not?”

Lord I continue to walk
into many churches
Living with Christians, Non-Christians,
Your Disciples, Sinners, and Atheist
- All your Children
I cry as Corinthians cried unto Paul
Whether I should go by Your word or
by the “Christian-made rules”
I was unknown about the
“loving revolutionist” in me
During my silent spectatorship
for many years
Now I am being asked
“Am I a Christian or Not”

Outside the Churches
I always see beggars and lepers
When I realize they are also Your children
I think of inviting them inside the Church
Or at least construct
a separate shed for them to worship You
Now I am being asked
“Am I a Christian or Not”

May be You have chosen me
to shed my blood
To see the unity and love
amidst the Christians
To free them from the
slavery of Religion, status caste
and Colour
Lord, Jesus Christ, My Master!
What I have said is
only the seed of my worries
You can see the grown up tree
at the sight of a seed
I know for sure You won’t ask whether
I am a Christian or not
As you know I am Your
precious poorest child in the world now
With richest heavenly
blessings and grace,
which are sufficient for me!